Since age 12 I dreamt of becoming a professional poker player.
The lifestyle was alluring to me; traveling to casinos around the world and living outside the system.
After graduating from university I went for it; I moved to Las Vegas to make my dream a reality.
I had gone broke chasing the same dream before, but that wasn’t going to stop me.
I put everything I had studied for the past 10 years into practice; probabilities and odds, body language tells and human psychology.
And I did it, I achieved my longtime dream. But my dream didn’t turn out how I thought it would; it was toxic for my body, mind and spirit.
Suffering from back pain because of sitting for long hours, I took my first Yoga class.
I was hooked.
The more time I spent at the Yoga studio, the more I dreaded the casino, despite the money I was earning.
I knew deep down that my poker career was coming to an end, but I was terrified by the thought.
I was giving myself all sorts of excuses to stay safe and comfortable.
But ultimately, I had to listen to my heart.
Without a clue what I was going to do next, I left poker behind and joined a Yoga Teacher training.
I loved being at the Yoga studio so much that I even took a job there.
Meanwhile though, I needed to figure out how I was going to support myself, so naturally, with my poker player background, I started a sunglasses company.
Even though I had a marketing degree, I didn’t know anything about business.
I made so many mistakes with my first company it wasn’t even funny.
From hiring the wrong people, to dumping heaps of cash on poorly designed Facebook ads, you name it, I probably did it.
Fast forward one year later from my poker retirement and I still hadn’t figured it out.
I was running out of cash and I needed to take action, so I did something crazy. I sold all of my non-essential belongings, including my car, and bought a one way ticket to Thailand.
It felt amazing to be living out of a backpack.
But soon after landing in Asia, I burned out on growing the business.
I wanted to make a positive impact in the world and it seemed like something was missing.
I was in a foreign country, and I had no idea how I was going to support myself at that point.
I spent nearly a year in Asia, full of uncertainty, before I met my first business mentor. His guidance was critical to my success.
You can’t even put a price on the value of a great teacher.
It’s because you don’t know what you don’t know.
Having someone standing with you and guiding you is invaluable.
It’s interesting though, the point when everything in my life opened up had nothing to do with business.
It came from an inner transition.
For me it was about owning my shit; no longer caring what anyone thought of me.
I realized I was holding onto a story that I was terrified for anyone to discover. One year before quitting poker I had a strange expereince.
It was sparked by one profound conversation.
I was an atheist my whole life, but during this auspicious meeting, something shifted within me, and afterward, I was in a state of bliss for days.
Simply sitting at a cafe doing nothing was the most joyful experience I had ever felt.
But my deep realizations about life were too much to integrate, and I became incredibly ungrounded.
At one point I even started to believe I was Jesus; reincarnated to save the world!!!
It’s hilarious to talk about now, but at the time, it wasn’t funny at all, because my family and friends were extremely worried about me.
Long story short, I ended up spending four days in a psych ward.
Years went by and I was too ashamed to talk about what happened; never revealing this experience to new friends.
Secretly I was living in fear that people would discover my story and abandon me.
Worse, I was petrified of ending up back in the mental hospital.
So I said fuck it. I have to let this go. It was so simple, I published a blog telling my story, and it was like a massive weight was lifted from my shoulders.
I started making money like I used to back in my poker days, and more importantly, I had my power back.
No longer was I expending mental energy to hide myself.
I was free.
Even now I have slight anxiety that a potential client might read about this and judge me for it.
Then I remember the reason I wrote it.
Because I don't need to hide.
Every experience I've ever had has made me who I am.
If someone doesn't understand, that's their problem.
If you want to grow a business doing something you love, the easy part is business strategy. Real profound shifts happen when you clear out the mental, emotional and spiritual blocks holding you back from doing what you really want to do.
It is often your mindset that is the true doorway to success.
My mission is to empower you to bring your life’s work to the world in the biggest way possible; to help you be in service.
I want to inspire you to never settle for less than your highest aspirations.
If you want to play big, let’s work together.